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 What you are about to read, (below Christian Andréason's introduction) is a newly edited version of questions and answers, originally released by www.near-death.com, which has been derived from Christian Andréason's forthcoming book, "Remembering Heaven. "  There is a great deal of information freely offered here, so please feel free to bookmark this page and visit often.  Also, Christian requests that you take the time to read his introduction.  It is his hope (after reading the introduction) that you will better understand his point of view about his NDE.

 

Introduction

Hello Everybody ...and Welcome to my On-line Book!

This explanation (below this introduction in white) is actually an edited synopsis of a book I am currently working on entitled, "Remembering Heaven."  While it is certainly a work-in-progress, I see no reason to wait in order to share this information. I know there is a huge hunger out there in our world for spiritual understanding ... so I have opted to pre-publish much of my writing here until the actual paperbound book can be made available.  However, please be advised that constant revisions and additions are being made on a consistent basis; and once the book is finally published, most of this manuscript will be taken down.

Every day so many people go to churches, read books and attend lectures ... starving for information!  However, too many end up feeling an even greater sense of emptiness and confusion than before.  I know, I was once one of these people!  There were so many moments after church where I felt more deflated than elated!  While driving my car away from the church parking lot, I remember having far more anxiety and tension than feelings of peace.  My intuition and inner Spirit was clearly trying to tell me something; That the 'God damning' information I was digesting as 'absolute truth' was not only very wrong, it did not properly represent the Spirit of God I knew in my Heart.  The teaching I was learning promoted thoughts of supremacy and absolute division, not habits of Loving service, Self-Love and Heart-felt devotion to all God's children.  Yet, even while I knew all this, the more logical (left brain) part of myself did not want to listen.  It seemed better to just suppress all the feelings I was having, play it safe and blindly trust that what I was being told was infallible.  After all, so many around me at church seemed so passionate about what they believed.  They would be so angry if I told them what I was thinking and sensing.  Who was I to cast a shadow of doubt and express my unbelievably deep inner pangs of longing? 

I am sure many of you know exactly what I am saying... 

Yet, deep inside each and every one of us there is a voice (Spirit) that speaks a higher truth; and once we are ready to encounter it, and truly listen, it comes as a wonderful, warm feeling that fills us with a solid sense of ourselves.  It takes maturity to be able to listen to this voice more than the voices that surround us in life.  Perhaps this is a test, as only those who develop the ability to really listen (and act from within) are those who are given the keys of God's Kingdom, which opens us to every unimaginable truth about who we really are, where we really come from and what we are here to do.

My experience, now popularly called the NDE (near-death-experience) or OBE (out-of-body experience) helped do this for me.  Because of my NDE, I was able to reconnect with the deeper, more spiritual 'true' sides of myself that had been covered up by years of self doubt and over reactive behavior.  Of course, this did nothing but draw negative energy my way; teaching me to distrust my own inner voice and see life was something to fight against.  Now, I see that I need not distrust my own instincts or fight anything.  All that I must expect of myself is to show up today with a spirit of Love, Service and Gratitude.  Along with everything else that I seek to accomplish in this lifetime, whether that is singing, songwriting, life-coaching, writing books, transacting real estate (and whatever else I decide to do with my life) I choose to be a vessel for The Holy Spirit.  It is my greatest wish to bring more Light and Love to this world.

For those of you wanting to know how my NDE occurred, it was due to a reaction to pain medications I had taken prior to undergoing dental surgery.  These drugs chemically reacted to the ones being administered to me during the procedure and the result was that my blood pressure plummeted, causing my Spirit to actually depart from my human body. During this out-of-body experience, I traveled to what I now refer to as, "The Divine Realm", "The Other Side" or sometimes, "Heaven."   Once I found myself in this spectacular place, I was shown many awesome things, including the fact that I had been actually predestined to have this experience.  I would also like to point out that my NDE came at a time in my life when I desperately needed to be reminded who I truly was (and AM) in Spirit. To say the very least, the event was (and has continued to be) life changing, as it has helped me (in many occurrences) make necessary decisions that have molded me into the man I am today. 

Now, I am very excited to share my understandings with you, as they have helped me to better understand many things in my life that troubled me before.  Put to rest are illusionary issues about an angry and unforgiving God, sex drive, hell (what and where is it), cruel people and the dark-challenging powers that affect our world in general. 

I have always had a tremendous Love for God, and ever since I can remember that Love has always been very passionate.  As a young child, I was incredibly intuitive and spiritually sensitive.  I recall often waking up and running to the window in my bedroom at dawn.  I loved to watch the sun rise. Somehow at that young age I knew that our Sun represented God. I also knew that we, God's creation, represented a kind of heavenly body in our solar system that forever circles and eventually merges with The Creator.   Just as the bright morning star foretold the coming of Jesus Christ, I knew that somewhere out in the cosmos was a brilliance of Light that represented us and our existence. Everywhere I looked, I knew that God was there. At night I would lie awake in bed and ponder how space knew no end. I understood that within the confines of space was indeed the very body of God and I also somehow understood that WE were the contents within that body.  But as I experienced the coldness of this world and grew into my humanity, I gradually fell away from the ways of Love and began to feel as if the presence of my Creator was no longer with me.  Having always been ever aware of God, the sense of loss I encountered was devastating! For many years, I suffered from terrible depressions. I grew daily in disappointment and despair believing that I could never be good enough for the God I had been taught about in my fundamentalist/traditional Christian religion.  My inner view of God changed and challenged every instinct I held within my being, and because of this I ceased to Love and respect myself fully. I became lost in confusion.  Yet, deep down I always knew God was somewhere around, but I could not understand why our Creator would allow so much suffering to happen in the world and then seemingly abandon us in it.  

After my experience, I was greatly relieved to see that God is very much with us "All The Time" ... and in much more of a way than I could have ever conceived before.  I saw that each of us carries within our Being (or our Soulbody) "a Spark or Body of Light" that truly IS God.  In my NDE, I saw that the purpose of suffering is to help us to illuminate (or brighten our inner Light.)  I understood that this "inner brightening" occurs every time we choose a more Loving path or method while dealing with those things or issues that frustrate or confuse us.  When we "let go and let God", chose kindness over retaliation and simply allow peace to fill and flow from us ... so too does Heavenly Light.  I saw that this Light helps us to be more open to the energy of Love, and once we are imbued and working within a system (or habit) of Love, this effort creates a harmonious kind of energy that surrounds us like a warm blanket ... drawing others like us, near. 

And on the other hand, I clearly saw the energy we create through bitterness, anger, jealously, lust, blind ambition, etc  ... this kind of behavior will only draw more of the same.  Which in the end, results in nothing but suffering.

As soon as we go through an experience of having our inner Light expanded (due to us practicing a more Loving way of thinking and operating our lives) our Spirit then speaks (more-so than it does normally) to our human mind.  This event then helps us to come up higher in various areas of our consciousness, and the Spirit then teaches us how to better handle ourselves and each other in life.  The more the Spirit speaks to us, due to us holding a fullness of inner Light, the more we will be able to comprehend and understand wisdoms we could never have realized before without this kind of experience. 

So, as we endure suffering and challenge while also learning how to focus on creating positive energy (or positive flow) to these situations, we consciously LEARN HOW TO GROW OUR INNER BEING by using our challenges to enhance our inner Light.

As soon as our inner Light is bright enough, our outer Light begins to shine and good things come to us.

And as we learn to share the good that comes to us with others ... even more blessing comes and so on.

Ultimately, as we develop a pattern of using Love and Inner Light to solve our daily problems, we eventually come to realize that we are far more powerful than anyone (including us) would have ever imagined!

During my NDE, I saw that "life" is nothing more than a series of initiations that each of us chooses to go through (before incarnating).  This means long before we arrived in these human bodies we made certain decisions as to most of the issues we would experience here on this planet.  So, being alive in a body means having to experience life with all of its tests ... challenges AND blessings!

I saw that every experience that comes to us in life, comes in a kind of rhythm.  I speak of the moments we call, good times, challenging times, when a baby is born or when someone dies ... being a winner in life, being the loser, victories and failures ... each of these moments collectively come to ALL of us ... and are a part of what I call, "The Rhythm of Life!"  And as each thing we experience comes, a kind of "initiation" occurs which shows us our strengths, as well as our weaknesses.  And if we are willing to take responsibility for our own errors (once we see WE are the cause for the challenging things that occur to us) we mature greatly in our Soul and Spirit.  Therefore, even for the most loving person ... challenges must come.   Most believe that religion and spirituality is here to save us from pain.  I say that it is here to help us through it!  (As well as avoid unnecessary repetitive initiations.)

As we learn how to endure and even thrive in our challenging situations, we grow our inner Light to an incomprehensible level and become a source of power and strength in this Universe that can be tapped into.  God (and the Whole of all Creation) can then use us to do good (not only in our own lives) but also the lives of others ... and those moments we call "magnificent" can come from us in life.

In my near-death experience, I saw that all our Light building initiations not only help us to advance eternally (as we make our way to Heaven), but also contribute to a special project God had in mind called, "Humanity."  We are each here to help God, as "The Almighty" grows us and all of humanity "up" ...so that "WE" can all become gradually stronger and much more wise with every passing generation. 

In each of us are a collection of cells and memories that make us ONE (energetically and biologically) with our human ancestors; and each of us are subliminally applying various wisdoms learned long ago (that are held genetically within our cells) to current times and new challenges.  We merge these wisdoms (whether subliminally or consciously) with the all-present knowing we hold within our eternal Soul, and what results is an awesome recipe called ... unique experience.  

While every generation will have its own strengths and weaknesses, with every passing century ... whether we know it or not, WE ARE ALL GROWING!  And what is growing and expanding is our inner awareness and our collective consciousness.  Stop and think about that.  No matter what you have done in life and no matter where you have or have not been, YOU ARE GROWING!  And what is causing the growth, is your conscious and subconscious examination of the circumstances you find yourself in and notice going on around you.  You are in the school of life and the PH.D. you are getting your "Heavenly Masters" in ... IS YOU! 

As we live and experience life, and also THINK ABOUT what we are experiencing ... we grow.  And as we learn how to push ourselves into thinking deeper thoughts and sustaining them past the point our ego mind wants us to ... we eventually learn how to manifest and think in new ways, which help us to reach even higher thoughts and goals than we may have ever dreamed possible.  This is what it means to expand in consciousness. 

Then ... as we practice Christ-centered Love in Life, and also apply forgiveness, service, true compassion and wisdom, not only will we be able to SEE OUR LIVES MORE CLEARLY ... but our physical (and spiritual) vibration will also increase and our DNA (and cellular structure) will completely alter as well.  And once this occurs ... life is NEVER the same after that!  This truth stands for every Soul who comes to Earth.  All have a chance to grow ...and change.  All we need (in order to have this happen) ... is to be willing and open.

I smile now as I think back to the Christian expression, "We are saved by the blood of Christ."  I never really understood what this meant before, but now it is so clear to me.  As we learn how to apply Christ centered Love in our lives, (as Christ taught and BEGGED us to do) we transcend and evolve our inner genetic make-up (our DNA) thus helping ourselves to become more strong and capable, so that in time we are able to produce more powerful and able clear-thinking human beings in the future.

Many now ask me what religion I say I belong to?  For me that question is not a difficult one, however not everyone always understands my answer.  My belief system is based upon the giving and receiving of unconditional Love, as taught by Jesus, The Christ as well as others who have obviously closely followed the path of Love.  I am also (obviously) a big believer in "the metaphysical" and supernatural power.  When faith and Unconditional Love are combined together in everyday life ... miracles occur; thus yielding intuitive abilities, healing capability or manifesting ability   for one's own life or someone else's.  Because I have witnessed many, many amazing things in my life, I now choose to call myself a "Metaphysical Christian."  However, I am fully cognizant that the Spirit of God, Christ and The Holy Spirit can transcend and encompass into any belief system or faith the planet has so-far known. 

In my Body, Soul and/or Spirit, I do not see myself exactly as male or female, black or white, gay or straight, American or Russian, republican or democrat, Christian or Hindu or Great or terrible.  While I may exude or project a physical image, I know in my heart that this is in truth only the first of many layers that makes me ... me.

I see my own human body as an accomplishment and result of nature.  I see my Soul as a by-product of this Universe which is always growing, expanding and evolving especially with every existence I have ever had.  What I learn here, I will take with me and apply other places in this Super Universe that God has already pre-ordained for me to go deep into.  I know that I will experience these future incarnations once this particular existence (I am now in) has concluded. 

Life never ends... and while the body may fade away ... consciousness never does.  When a person dies, the Spirit and Soul of that person simply leaves the body like water being poured from one glass into another.  And while there is usually a period of time when we rest between existences (with those dear to us ... in the Heavenly Realms), a moment always comes where we decide to move our energy on to a new life that interests us that  is arranged (by our helpers in Heaven) in such a way that we might be encouraged to improve (and expand) our range of Universal understanding.  This is the way it has always been, since the dawn of time, and this is how it shall be until God decides to call us all back to stay home.  Yet, I happen to know that 'God's last call' is not going to happen until every single Soul understands what Love is, and until we are each satisfied with what we are able to manifest for ourselves in the eternal Realm of Heaven ... no one is going to want to just stay around and linger in Heaven.  Much of the reasoning behind a Soul wanting to incarnate into a human body is to give us a chance to learn how to manifest for ourselves, whether it is a single physical object or an emotional feeling.  Until we learn to overcome obstacles and self worth issues, these lessons will not be easily learned.  Therefore, multiple incarnations in different kinds of bodies and environments is vital to our learning process.

During my NDE I learned without a doubt that ... I AM (as are each of us) a Beloved Child of God; and no matter what I may do in this life (right or wrong) or no matter the station of consciousness I choose to exist in (animal based consciousness, common consciousness, higher consciousness or even in a state of approximate Christ-like thinking, which I call Super Divine Mind) ... there is nothing that will ever change the fact that I am eternal and will continue to exist forever!  And when Love has fallen far from my method, teachers and Beings of Light are coming for me ... challenges will come my way to help remind me to see why Love is so important.  And once I return to Love ... I am ALWAYS welcomed back into the fold.  (And the same applies to each of us!) 

From where I sit now in my life, (looking back at my own life here on earth) I see that God has led me down a path of enlightenment and amazing realization that I am becoming more than I was the day before.  Never in my wildest dreams would I have ever guessed I would now think and see things the way I now do!  This is what happens when one has allowed his or her consciousness to become expanded and has allowed ALL of life's initiations to come and go, within "The Rhythm" and Flow of Life.  I understand now, that no matter what I see or think is happening to me currently, (whether it is a blessing or a challenge) I am being made to 'grow up' in my eternal Spirit and in my Soul.  Because of this I am no longer afraid of what might be coming to me in life, as I see that I am here to use what I think I know and see if I can prove it right!  We are each being given a fantastic opportunity to apply many different energies that are within and around us.  We get to define in the moment what is good for us individually and what is not.  We get to see where we truly sit in our faith in God ...and also ourselves.  Sometimes we are successful ...and then there are the times where we clearly see there is so much more to learn!  ...And as we embrace our strengths, along with our weaknesses ... we grow through them ... we can confidently know that we are not too far away from becoming more happy, whole and complete. 

As of this updated writing, it has now been quite a few years since my near-death experience.  On one hand it seems like it was a hundred years ago; and yet, I can still remember it all so clearly, as if it had happened yesterday and I am still right there in the moment!  Today, I maintain a very strong relationship with the world of Spirit and sometimes I find that my daily and dream life is (at times) just as enlightening as my near-death experience was when it happened.  I will often go through periods where "sleeping" is nothing more than an excuse to leave the Earth plane so that I might go into a deeper state of consciousness and spiritual connectivity.  I will dream epic simulation dreams and fully know that they are happening for the purpose of demonstrating to me spiritual truth or even upcoming lessons that I (or others') will soon be learning during waking hours. 

Besides being a recording artist, a writer and also being involved with Real Estate, it may come as something of a surprise (or not) that I am also an Intuitive/Christ-centered Life Coach as well.  I know ... lots of hats to wear!  Right?  Well, let me say that I certainly didn't plan it that way!  It just happened...  Yet, I know deep down I would not have it any other way.  Having variety in my life has always been my cup of tea!  Plus, I clearly see that all the many things I do in my life draws to me many different kinds of people; many of whom I share my understandings with.

So, while I record music, help others transition into or out of a home ... I also dedicate a few days out of every week or month (depending on my schedule) to do what I call, "my one-on-one ministry."  This occupation illustrates moments where I take time to sit down, speak and work with people (from all walks of life and faith around the world) in a concentrated manner in regard to life and spiritual or mystical issues.  When I first started doing this, right after my NDE in 1995, I used to talk with dozens of folks every single day.  Then in 1999, people started showing up at my doorstep unannounced. 

In 2002, I made doing one-on-one's "official" and started seeing about 5 people a day for two hours at a time ... 6 days a week.  After over half a decade of doing this kind of thing, I decided if I wanted to live past 50, that I was going to have to cut back ... so I did.  Yet, I still conduct phone sessions and allocate several weeks or months out of the year to do nothing more than see those who really want to work with me.

I will always consider "assisting others" as most definitely my higher purpose  and there is little I enjoy doing more than this.  I hold no worldly degrees or certifications.  I simply utilize my intuitive gifts as God (or The Holy Spirit) allows me to use them.  These are the gifts of clairsentiance (the ability to be spiritually feeling), clairaudiance (the ability to spiritually hear), clairvoyance (the gift to spiritually see) and claircognizance (the gift to spiritually know things that cannot be otherwise known, thus utilizing Spiritual wisdom).  I try to be very clear and tell people who come to see me one-on-one (because a friend, relative or co-worker of theirs had a one-on-one with me and saw me as a kind of "John Edwards" or "Sylvia Brown") that the experience others' have with me, might not always be the same kind of experience they have.  So in having said that... please let me now say this:

While some may tend to think of me as a psychic ... I need you to know that I have never thought of myself as 'a psychic' ... nor do I wish to be.  I simply see myself as a highly intuitive person who loves God and people, who also just happens to possess a body of spiritual understanding.  And if this aspect of me makes those of you who bend toward fundamental Christian values a little nervous ... please be advised that even Paul him self spoke about something he called, "The Gifts of the Spirit."  Prophecy (a spiritual gift often acknowledged in the Bible) is just another expression for being intuitively gifted.

I deeply believe that the gifts I happen to possess were afforded to me by God early on when I was a child, yet, when life started to get really difficult for me at home and school (when I was an adolescent), my intuition gradually faded for a period of time because I began to distrust myself and God's path for my life.  I listened too much to others' fear and false beliefs about God and paranormal ability, and out of respect, I believe I sought to suppress my gifts ... in order to fit in with everyday society. Dumb! Dumb!  Dumb!!!  I see now what a huge mistake that was, as I greatly compromised my true mission here on this planet; neglecting the growth of my own Soul. 

Now, since having my NDE ... my gifts have been strongly revived; and I find that the more I use Christ-based Love in my life ... the stronger they become!  However, if God does NOT want me to see, hear, feel or know something about a person, then that door will remain shut and there will be nothing I can do to open it.  But, if I am allowed to use my gifts ... then there is a definite destiny to be had between me and the person I am working with ... and I will gratefully play whatever part I am supposed to.

In Conclusion

Lastly:

Before you read on to the question & answer portion of this page, please understand that in freely sharing my near-death experience with you in this manner, I am in no way pushing it or personal beliefs on anyone.  You are my most honored guest and a guest always has the right to refuse what is put before him or her. 

If you are full, you are full.  Gently push the plate away and come back when you are hungry.

If you have severe doubts ... then prayerfully ask God to show you your truth ... **and in time** ... God will!

I know and believe that each of us has the God-given right to claim for ourselves whatever we are able to currently conceive and base our thinking around.  I also know that to truly grow spiritually, we must consistently allow our beliefs to flow and evolve over time as our consciousness gradually expands.  Our lives are a journey here and no one's journey can or will ever be exactly the same. No two people can look at a single thing and see it in the same exact way. This is the way it was meant to be.

Please hear me when I recommend to you: Never allow anyone to dictate to you who God is to you!  Having a relationship with God is just that, a relationship; and as each of us hopefully knows by now, a relationship is only as good as the time and effort put forth to help it grow!  You may certainly 'borrow' from someone else's vision (until you are able to develop your own) but please know that God has not put us here to just follow others blindly and listen to what they say without us putting some loving thought behind it. 

God wants us to find and see Heaven using our own spiritual eyes ... and from what I have learned from God, these are not the eyes we hold in our head, but the ones we use in our Heart.  We are here to learn how to think and feel for ourselves ... and once we have become comfortable with the vision we see in our minds, we may then merge our energies together with others of like mind in order to create something beautiful and lasting.  This is how it has been done since time began.  Trust the path your life takes you on.  Know that you and your life is not a mistake.  One road always leads to another.  No one is ever 'stuck' unless he or she chooses to be. 

Whatever you do, please cherish your journey and cherish those who are on it with you!   I know some of these people can be quite difficult to endure, but remember, THE TRUTH IS we each chose each other before we came here!  So, try not to get taken in by all the drama!  We are each here to learn and be taught by one another.  When distress occurs, be sure to ask yourself what it is that might need to be taught (or learned) in that circumstance.  Ask yourself, "do I want to add my own energy with this kind of energy or do I want to keep it sound and stable?" If you can learn to converse with yourself in this manner, you will be way ahead of the curve!  Our current existences on this planet are wonderful gifts and we have been given the opportunity to fly higher in Spirit than anyone could ever dream!  Try your best to see everyday as a chance to soar!

Never allow FEAR, guilt, shame, feelings of inadequacy or perpetual condemnation to rule over you, these things are not of Love ... and what is not of Love is certainly not of God!

You are a wondrous creation of God, Almighty!  Believe in yourself and The Power will come to help you be all you were meant to be.

God has great power, wisdom and Loving care to guide us to the places we need to go to most. If you feel you need to get somewhere in life, you can trust that God will get you there when you most need or are truly ready to arrive.  Open yourself to the Almighty Spirit and you will know for you what is right.  God has perfect timing!  You wouldn't believe just how perfect it all is!  Please go forth in your life with a sense of appreciation, (for yourself and ALL OTHERS).  Know that wherever you walk, your loving creator walks with you.  Even in times when people have given up on you or you have given up on yourself, know that God and Heaven will NEVER give up on you!  All of us are The Creator's beloved children and not one child will ever be lost.  God is always there, Loving, patient and kind ... just as our Heavenly Creator has always been.

The more we live our lives in the ways of Love, the more we will see and eventually understand all that is and all that will be.

Peace be with you and all you Love!  May your days be filled with Laughter, Understanding and Light!

-Christian Andréason
 (Revised May 2006)
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Walking in the Garden of a Loving God
Christian Andréason's near-death experience, as printed and presented on www.near-death.com
 

Once in a great while I stumble across someone's NDE testimony that I find to be uniquely outstanding and awesome. Christian Andréason (pronounced On-dray-son) and his NDE testimony is the latest one! For reasons that you will discover for yourself, I consider his experience as the most inspirational I've ever read. His testimony is filled with new insights - new "pieces" to fit into my own NDE cosmology puzzle.

It was on June 2nd of 1995, that Christian Andréason had his near-death experience. Because of an unanticipated drug interaction and overdose, Christian's blood pressure was caused to plummet while undergoing routine dental surgery. Once out of his body, Christian took an extensive tour of what he calls, "The Divine Realm" and he saw himself go before a great light he deeply believes to have been God. The experience not only changed the entire course of Christian's life, but also the direction of his music career. He immediately became more focused on all things spiritual; serving friends, loved ones and even those some might consider strangers in anyway possible.

Best known for being an award-winning - critically acclaimed recording artist, Christian Andréason is a singer, songwriter and producer of inspirational music for his independent record label, Wonderboy Records. Since 1987 he has professionally recorded hundreds of songs and produced a total of 9 albums. Praised by celebrities, major press and even former United States Presidents, Christian's music and messages of love have so far reached millions of ears and eyes Internationally via Internet, television, stage, print and radio.

Betty Eadie and Christian

Interestingly enough, Christian is the writer/singer of the theme song entitled, "All The Time" used by fellow NDEer and long-time # 1 N.Y. Times Best Selling Author, Betty J. Eadie for her 2002 award winning television program, "Embraced by the Light" ... which featured Betty's famous book of the same name. Betty J. Eadie was the first to discover and publish some of Christian's NDE writing in several pages of the 1999 inspirational book, "The Ripple Effect." The two are great friends, as Betty has been a great source of inspiration to Christian for many years.

Besides writing about spirituality and recording future music, Christian now devotes several days every week toward a thriving spiritual therapy/one-on-one ministry practice based in Houston, Texas. Using his God given intuitive gifts and clairvoyant abilities he has since helped a multitude - including many well known in entertainment media, politics, ministry and in the new-thought movement.
  

Kevin Williams - 2004


The following is an edited version of questions and answers taken from Christian's forthcoming book. While it is reprinted on this website for inspirational reading, we ask should you choose to print it out for your own personal use, that you make a contribution at the link provided toward the bottom of this page.  If you would like to publish any part of this work, written permission must be first given by the author.

 


What happened?

On June 2nd, 1995 I had what is commonly called, "a near-death/out-of-body experience." This event occurred because of a reaction to a mixture of medications I had taken before having dental surgery performed.

Two weeks prior to the dental surgery, I injured myself while lifting a big screen TV up a long flight of stairs in the rain. Once at the top, I slipped and lost my footing. While I did manage to catch the TV, I pulled out several muscles in my lower back and was in terrible pain.  My injury was so bad, I could not even stand once I got the TV into my apartment.  I literally could do nothing but crawl to my bedroom and into the bed.  A doctor was called, but because the medications he put me on were not powerful enough to ease my suffering, I remained bedridden for about two weeks.  This then launched me into a two week fast where I lost a tremendous amount of weight.   Getting up and down to go to the bathroom was simply too excruciating, so I made a conscious decision not to eat and drink as little as possible.  Later, a dear friend found out what I had been going through and he came over to give me a much stronger painkiller he had found and brought back with him from a recent trip to Columbia.  The pills he gave me worked so well I called them "my magic pills" because I was soon able to get up and move around. 

After having been bedridden for so long, as soon as I could get up I found myself standing in my kitchen eating some walnuts, only to realize my back tooth really hurt!  I called my dentist to make an appointment and he reminded me that he had already told me I needed to have a root canal done, but I had procrastinated dealing with it. 

On the day of my dental surgery, now having had plenty of time to imagine the discomfort I was about to endure in the dental chair (and completely weary of the thought of me having to endure any additional pain) I purposefully took a rather large dose of pain killers and anti anxiety medicines before the appointment, thinking that this would save me from feeling anything too severe during or after the procedure.  (I know, not the most intelligent thing to do.  But it did not stop there!)  Because I was particularly nervous that day, I had a lapse in my memory, and forgetting that I had already taken some pills ... I actually took another handful as I was rushing out the door! 

The dentist's office, into the chair and then the beyond...

It was not until I stepped out of the car that I started to realize I was feeling pretty woozy. Yet, because I had forgotten I had taken that extra handful of pills, it never occurred to me that I might be in danger.  Actually, at the time, I felt pretty good. But then the inevitable happened:

The large dose of pain killers ended up conflicting with the anesthesia given to me in the dentist’s office and the result was that my blood pressure fell too low and I was literally knocked unconscious and right out of my body. I felt myself lift up out of my chest and head area and almost immediately I found myself surrounded by the most dazzling, brilliant white Light that seemed to be growing brighter and brighter in intensity by the second, especially once I found myself actually starting to become ONE with it. 

The happiness I felt in merging with the Light was indescribable! 

At the same time, I started to realize that I was surrounded and being observed by many beings and fellow Souls, who in reality (I somehow understood) had been standing near me during my entire lifetime!  Every single one of these individuals was someone I knew very well, but did not recognize as having been a part of my life during this incarnation.  Yet, the closeness and familiarity I felt for these beloved Souls surpassed any devotion for anyone I have ever learned to Love here on this planet.  As I felt the energy and Love coming from these individuals, I knew that we were all family and I could intuit that our mutual growth depended on the gradual maturity and growth of us all; and that for every success one of us experienced, there was a joyous celebration felt by the entire group! 

Memories of past-life experiences with these beings filled my consciousness and as this happened I was filled with wonder at how truly eternal we all are!  I saw how life never ends.  Once a single lifetime is over, that particular existence (and all the dreams, issues and desires that come with it) will bridge over and become an extension to yet another lifetime that is to be.   The friends, family, co-hearts we have had before, we will experience in some, shape or form ... again somewhere else, just as we have each experienced them before.

An inner need to explore and understand my own eternal truth progressively grew stronger. Suddenly, I felt my inner Light begin to expand and contract, and like an exploding star, I found my intellect and consciousness traveling in multiple directions, realities and dimensions all at once.  This event (for lack of a better word or expression) was completely mind blowing!  And because of this, I often find it difficult to relay my NDE along the lines of a chronological story, because in truth, everything I experienced from this point forward happened to me all at once.

All time stopped ... and a mere two minutes of Earth time turned into what seemed to be days, weeks and even months. A huge scope of understanding was now engulfing my total comprehension by the nanosecond.  

Using a ego-driven, logical mind ... this concept might seem intense and/or complex.  Yet, from Heaven the process is actually seen as quite simple and effortless.

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As I sensed the energy of all those who were around me, I was helped to remember that every child of God is very precious, always seen and never forgotten.  There is nothing any of us could possibly do to keep us from being eternally Loved by God ... forever.   I undeniably saw and understood that each and everyone of us exists for a very definite purpose, holds a particular kind of unique energy (which usually manifests as a kind of talent that is meant to be used and shared with others during our lifetime(s).

As I stood in the Light, memories from former incarnations flooded my intellect and as this happened, it struck me how all the moments (even those that might have seemed insignificant before) all turned out to be huge stepping stones ... when seen from a eternal perspective.  I saw how even the most mundane or boring task had the ability to lead me to an even greater awareness about myself. 

As I continued this process of backtracking and reviewing the spiritual reflection of Heaven against all the mortal lives my Soul had chosen to reside within, I was able to review many moments taken from my current life and compare against moments from former incarnations.  It was during this process that I saw many behavior patterns and habits (some good and some challenging) that had been following me around lifetime after lifetime. 

I clearly saw the origin behind every addiction or flaw I had and how I had acquired each (whether socially, genetically or energetically) and also knew that with every incarnation I lived in, I was being given the opportunity to ascend my own spiritual intellect and individualized thinking (in how I made decisions for myself) so that I could rise above the ill behaviors that did not serve the purpose of my Higher Self or the greater good of God.

I saw that multiple incarnations (where we experience many different kinds of lives; some poor, some wealthy, some with beauty, some with disfigurement or disease, some with fame, some with misfortune or a mixture of everything) are all necessary; as these help us examine the unlimited amount of vantage points into the remarkable, endurable, unchangeable and complex natures of our own Soul. To glimpse this (even once) in a single lifetime is a truly a great blessing, as this is how we begin to truly recognize and define our own potential, behold our own wonder and begin to see the omnipotent face of God.  All else is of the ego.

From Heaven I saw that it is our destiny, as human beings to have many mystical experiences and realize the Divine while we are still alive in a flesh suit.   Not only are they necessary, they unlock the Godtruth within you and roll out pieces of your Divine blueprint, as to who you really are. 

Once you have become a person who has experienced and embraced your own Divinity, the sky is the limit as far as all the things you will be able to achieve in a single lifetime.

You will find that the older, more experienced or advanced your own Soul becomes, the more repetitive revelation type experiences will increase.  As your Soul matures and learns how to balance all areas of your life you will crave mystical experiences more than you seek creature comforts.  You will feel as if something is missing if you are without a revelatory experience for too long.  And if you are, then this simply means you are in need of balancing or amending something in your life that might be blocking you.    (Welcome to the game of life!)

So until that next revelation moment comes, many lifetimes are necessary so that we might improve our Soul's mental and emotional ability to create what we think of as identity, so that we might come to know and stabilize our own intentions ... and realize how powerful they are! 

Once we realize how powerful our intentions are  and understand that they do indeed manifest our destiny, we will find ourselves more and more able to access and incorporate any dream, wish or concept we desire, as we continue to explore and evaluate ourselves in this or later lifetimes.  (In other words, as we face how important our own thoughts are, the negative issues or hang-ups that might have blocked us before, won't hold the same power as we will have figured out how to remove the emotional and energetic attachments they once imposed.)

As each of us possesses the Spark of God within, or what Jesus spoke of as, "The Kingdom that is within you..." We will all one day learn that we have access to unlimited amounts of  power that exists on a enormous, nuclear scale. This power begins as a seed or thought planted in the mind.  If the thought is reinforced with additional thoughts of like kind, it will materialize and bloom.  Our Spirit (or Higher Self) already knows this, it is just waiting for us to become conscious of this truth and see that we have the power to govern our lives, by self governing our minds.  Until then, the Universe will deliver life lessons that MUST COME come to help us awaken our own consciousness, which overtime bridges us over into Divine truth.

So while we may not be able to rectify or bring into balance every issue (we would like) in a single lifetime  as our Soul's intellect grows, our ability to predestine ourselves into better circumstances will improve and we will enable our Soul to energetically seek out, materialize and manifest future lives that will help us achieve what our intention believes it most needs ... so that we might continue our growth.

It was in this moment that I became more fully aware of the fact that God (our Creator) wants us to experience everything that we wish to experience.  Nothing is denied us, only that which we inherently deny ourselves.  And while, certain experiences do not always lead to pleasant outcomes, they do lead to a certain amount of enlightenment.  Especially as one returns his or her thinking to The Light and focusing on God's wish for us to learn a more loving way to live our lives. 

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Traveling at a velocity faster than the speed of light, with one super sonic boom right after another, I witnessed an uncountable amount of wonderful places that were not of this world; and as this part of my journey moved forward, ultimately many spiritual truths were lovingly and generously revealed to me with mind-bending answers.   It is from this particular occurrence that I believe I now am able to help others' understand and/or connect to the more eternal parts of the other side when I meet with them one-on-one, as I am able to clairvoyantly see where most Souls have incarnated within the Creator's Super Universe.

I saw there are literally trillions of worlds out there with organized life on them, only these locations are either very far away from Earth or held in different dimensions that can only be traversed by the Spirit.

As this amazing moment of enlightenment was occurring, I remember recognizing that I was being guided by a Spirit who appeared in the form of the most beautiful woman anyone could possibly imagine.  She spoke to me using the softest, most sincere voice I had ever heard and ultimately she became my most trusted guide, as she was so lovely and incredibly gentle.  Following us were three other guides who all appeared as men, one of whom I recognized as being my elder guide.  This particular guide would show up during my experience (only as he was needed) to approve or not approve the places and spaces of time I entered into or was being shown. 

All my guides were robed with what seemed to be a beautiful glistening white, diamond-like material. I could also distinguish that they had Light coming from underneath their garments. I knew that this Light was their true bodies. The moment they came into my awareness, I remembered these beings as having been some of my closest friends that have been with me for all-eternity. They were very kind to me and very caring about my feelings. There are no secrets in Heaven, so information that might have been considered embarrassing (that was revealed to me during my life-review) was treated with tremendous sensitivity. And even in moments when I might have cried knowing that someone knew my deepest darkest secrets, wonderful warm laughter was often exchanged between us instead! 

No matter any unpleasantness they may have known about me, I knew absolutely that I was unconditionally Loved and that there was nothing I could ever do to change this.  It was revealed to me that my guides had made many communications to me during my lifetime, prior to my NDE, particularly during difficult times in my childhood and adolescence, only I was not consciously aware of them or their presence at the time.  Sometimes a thought would come into my head that was to lead me in more of an appropriate direction.  I understood that many times these "thoughts" were actually coming from my guides.  I was amazed by the fact that even during the times I had felt absolutely isolated or alone, I never was!  They (like angels) had been right beside me the entire time! 

During my NDE, while I was in consciously their midst, I felt a tremendous amount of safety and comfort, so I began to review some of my biggest fears and perceptions of failure in life, and this brought me to consider the religious understandings and rules I had come to learn as gospel during this lifetime.  Immediately, I felt the power of The Holy Spirit fill my intellect.  As this happened, I realized that while many of our World's religious ideas had been divinely inspired during their origin (to help us see ourselves and the nature of our Spirit more clearly) their basis had been largely misconstrued over time due to humankind's need to rule over, socially dictate and micromanage the behaviors of their fellow brothers' and sisters'.  (I will cover more about this later.)

I began to think of all the sins I had committed during my life and felt so terrible and guilty about.  Immediately I understood that many of these moments (where I strayed from the ways of Love and Light) were actually times where I had chosen to initiate future growth for my own Soul.  I saw that none of my 'sinful' actions were of any shock or surprise to God or anyone else in Heaven.  They knew what I was doing and exactly why I was doing it.  There was no judgment whatsoever!  I saw that by choosing to sin I had made a rather brave (or gutsy) detour from the "likely" and predictable ... and instead rooted myself upon a path that would help me to investigate the very yearnings (I was most likely running from) and deep dark questions still left largely unanswered in my own Soul.  Not that these paths would be easy ones mind you, however they would (and did) lead me toward circumstances and individuals who would play out the role of some of my greatest teachers in life. 

Essentially, from the view point of Heaven, I saw there are two view points to this word, "sin."

There is the view point from The Other Side and the view point held from the World.

From the view point of the Other Side, I saw that the act of "sinning" was seen as simply the departure of one path for another, and that the only true penalty (felt by the Spirit) would be that we would be made to endure the repercussions and energies we had quested to learn of, absorb or make others' experience.  I would also like to mention that I clearly saw that once we were done with an exploration and had said so directly to God with a pure Heart, (whether in this lifetime or the next) God would faithfully once again set us back upon a path that resembled our true purpose.

From the viewpoint of the World, our human mind sees "sin" as a departure away from our Spirit's authentic purpose, which is to be perfect, pure and whole.  If we see ourselves doing something that apposes the will of our Spirit, our Soul becomes grieved and is made to feel bad about its self.  This action causes us to become fragmented inside.  Meaning: our inner Light becomes subdivided and our Heart feels confused.  As the ego begins to take note of what is occurring, it uses the situation to take full advantage of the person and make them feel worthless.  And as the individual turns their "sin" into a habit or addiction, ego then seeks to have them believe that they are now too far away from their own Spirit, therefore it is not possible for them to maintain control over themselves, their lives or their destiny. This (of course) is a lie and comes from that which is Love's opposite ... evil.

Interestingly enough, from Heaven I saw that the only' true sin' one can commit is to lose faith in God.  Yet the reason for this is not for what most might think...

To lose faith in God causes a Soul to lose faith in themselves.  It is the inner Spark within us that gives us eternal and physical life.  To deny God is to deny the inner Spark, and to deny the inner Spark is to reject our life's true purpose and the inner power that gives us everything we are and aspire to be.

When we fail to have faith in ourselves, we cannot perpetuate Self Love which helps us create and maintain everything we enjoy about ourselves.  Without Self Love we open ourselves to lower energies ... and destructive thoughts and habits soon pull us away from our ability to tune into our Spirit. 

If our Soul does not feel connected to Love or its own Spirit, the human being around the Soul (the mind) will begin to become depressed, as very little life giving Light (from the inner Spark) will have been created.  In time, if the behavior of faithlessness is not remedied, the Soul will desire to leave the human being (and the mind it is attached to) and the human organism (aided by ego) will seek to find a way to die.  Either a want for suicide will emerge or a dis-ease or addiction (that will bring eventual destruction) will come about.

Questions and Answers

Did you meet Jesus?

During the latter part of my near-death experience, I found myself walking in a beautiful garden with a Being whose golden Lightbody was significantly brighter than my own.  And even though there was no evidence of gender, this particular Being felt very masculine to me. 

I was standing in the garden when all of the sudden I was aware that someone was behind me.  As I turned around, I felt a wonderful, unassuming energy easily and quickly merge with my own.  Yet at the same time, I found that I was acutely aware of my own identity and uniqueness.  This surprised me as it was evident to me that this Being was clearly far more advanced and powerful than me, as his Light and energy had what I can only think to call "a nuclear" quality to it, which could clearly take over my energy and Light and reassemble it completely!  But even with this possible, I knew it would never happen as he embraced me and accepted me just as I was.

I felt incredibly happy, safe and peaceful ... and from that moment forward, I began to think of the Being as, "The Guardian of the Garden."  

I will always remember the Guardian as being kind, brilliant, funny, sensitive, polite, wise and intensely humble.  One could never imagine having a more perfect friend!  While the Guardian and I walked thru the lush garden, I saw that it was filled with every colorful flower imaginable.  Vibrant chirping birds and shimmering waterfalls that plunged into vast crystal blue pools of singing water were everywhere.  I recall a moment when I ran to one of the pools and put my hands and arms in and reached as far under the water as I could.  My reach seemed limitless and yet, I knew that in truth there was no bottom.  As I lift the water up and splashed it against my face, I could actually sense it was alive as I listened to all the many different harmonious tones coming from it.  The sensation was not a damp wet feeling at all, but rather, cool, smooth and soothing.

The Guardian leaned down to talk to me.  We spoke about many things, but what I recall the most was him conveying our Creator's intentions for the World, and all the many Super Universe(s) and Heaven(s) that surround us.  He shared with me how everything and everyone is connected, and even with one part missing, everything in all Creation would fall completely to pieces.  The vibrations behind the Guardian's teachings greatly stimulated my spiritual mind; to the point I could actually feel a kind of tickling or buzzing sensation going on all around me.  A moment came where we were both lifted upward.  I knew this was happening so I could view the entirety of the Creator's Garden from above.  I saw that the garden is immense and has no end!  I commented about all the many different kinds of flowers I was seeing and the Guardian reminded me that each and every flower within the garden actually represented a single Soul who had incarnated within God's Super Universe.  I was told that the garden is a reminder to all who choose to walk within it of God's great Love and devotion to all Creation.  The Guardian also warned me not to allow myself to become too infatuated with the colorful blooms of the flowers, but to consider the plain looking stalk which holds the bloom up for all to see.  The Guardian told me that the stalk was actually just as important as the bloom itself, as the bloom (which lives to ultimately drop seeds) is a testament to the longevity and staying power of the stalk.  The Guardian then told me that when we faithfully endure the storms and challenges of life, our "stalk" (or Soul) is gradually made thicker and more solid, and in time ... it will hold a gigantic "bloom" (or Spirit) for all creation to see and enjoy.  "The power of unconditional Love, the search for wisdom, faith in God's plan, charity and the pursuit of Joy" the Guardian told me, "is what causes our stalk to bloom beautiful flowers and drop the seeds of destiny, thus yielding a beautiful and colorful life!" 

And then the Guardian said something that has stayed with me.&nb